Maman, viens me chercher. Maman, j'ai faim. Maman, j'ai peur.
Maman, parle-moi. Maman, soigne-moi.
Maman, j'ai besoin d'une mère. J'ai besoin d'une mer d'affection.
Maman, berce-moi et chante moi une histoire de fées. Maman, assure-moi que tout ira bien.
Maman, promet moi.

Maman, remet moi au monde.
Je t'aiderai à me reconstruire. Nous irons lentement et nous réussirons.
Maman, je n'ai plus d'eau dans mes yeux. Maman, je tremble.
Borde-moi. Ramène-moi au temps où il n'y avait que toi qui m'importait.
Maman. Viens me chercher.

Toujours ailleurs. Dans votre monde, dans votre vie.
What's up with me ?
Faire de mon mieux. Venir en aide. Me perdre.
What's up with me ?
Oublier que mon coeur bat aussi.
What's up with me ?

Questionnements sans réponses.
I'm sad.
Sentiment d'insatisfaction.
I'm sad.
Je ne mérite pas ce que je donne.
I cry.

Here. It is me. Everything's falling apart. I'm hanging on. Not knowing why, not knowing how.
Just a few words and I lose my concentration again.
A struggle of ideas. A yes and a no. A smile and a tear. An exhaustion. A life that is laughing at me.
A life that knows I never give up. This life that is testing my limits.

My soul bones are cracking up. I will just have to let it go. Let everything go. Even if it haunts me. Even if it's tearing me apart. I know I'm not getting what I want anyway. I will never get what I want when I want it.
I know I'll have to take another side of the road. Walk alone for a while, even if I'm scared. I don't have to decide, I have to accept.
Accept that everything breaks sometime. I will always end up alone. Life's not meant to be easy. Life's meant to make us grow.

The Friendship test

Result :
Camaraderie is your specialty, and you tend to keep your pals at the very top of your priority list. When a friend is in need, whether for emotional support, a financial boost, or a simple helping hand, they can count on you to come through. You give the very best of yourself, and will actually put your own desires (and sometimes needs) on hold for the sake of a pal's happiness. Your friends surely appreciate your self-sacrificing nature and probably sing your praises. While it's wonderful to show such intense dedication, however, there could be some negative consequences to your high level of commitment; do you ever feel, for example, that you are giving much more than others give in return, or that you are being taken advantage of? While most people see the value of such a fab friend, there are also folks who will milk your generosity for all its worth - not always out of maliciousness, but sometimes because it's just too easy. There is also the danger of developing bitter feelings when you give up your own wants for those of others - a true friend, in fact, will not expect you to drop everything for them in every situation, and will surely respect your decision to put yourself first from time to time.

-Well, this is me. -

Quand les mots ne m'apportent plus rien. Quand m'exprimer devient si compliqué et effrayant. Je sens ma peau trembler. Je ne sais plus comment exister. Ma vie, il y'en a pas. Ma vie, elle s'enfuit. Doucement. Sûrement. Tout le temps.
Moi. Je ne comprend rien en ce mot. Moi ; rien.

M'arrêter. Je ne cesse de m'essouffler. Je me précipite. Je ne vis pas. Je n'apprend rien.
Trébucher. Me fondre au sol. Toucher la terre. Creuser. Semer ma vie au sol.